Happy Anniversary, Andy!

Fourteen years of marriage. Wow! I seriously cannot believe it (until I look at my breakfast table and see my "little guy" who is nearly thirteen. . .reality check). As of this summer, I have officially known Andy the same amount of time that I did not know him. Weird.

Anyway, happy anniversary! This year has been tough in so many areas and we have for sure seen more downs than ups in the past twelve months. However, we are closer now than before and we know each other more intimately than before. That's what it is about. . . for better and for worse!

My motto this year has been LOVE HOPES and I am hopeful! I am hopeful that we will have fourteen more great years (and then fourteen more after that and fourteen more after that and maybe even fourteen more after that). I am hopeful that our love will never stop growing. I am hopeful that he will always be my best friend. I am hopeful that he will always be my greatest ally and biggest fan. I am hopeful that as we continue to have ups and downs in our relationship, that the ups will outnumber the downs. I am hopeful that he will love me more tomorrow than he does today and that I will love him more the next day than I do tomorrow.

I love him. I am thankful for him. If I could do it all over again, I would. He is my soul mate. He is my destiny. (Can I write that or it is way too corny and dumb? I'm not sure.) He is who I dreamed of for the first eighteen years of my life and who I have loved for the past eighteen. He is the last person I want to see at night and the first I want to see in the morning. He is the person I long to dream with. I adore my husband.

Thanks for loving me, Andy. Thanks for hoping with me. Thanks for dreaming with me. Thanks for tolerating me. Thanks for everything.

I love you.

I am proud of you.

I love. I hope. I dream. . .of you!

Happy Anniversary, my love!

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