Beth Moore: So Long, Insecurity

So, I went to the Beth Moore simulcast this weekend with my two girlfriends from Durango (and 300,000 other women all over the country--including, come to find out, my mother and my grandmother)! It was good and it was much needed! My spiritual climate here in Durango is more dry than the arid mountain climate I live in. It's odd, because I feel so close to God and so "in tune" with what He is trying to do in my life right now. I feel secure and comforted in our new "life" and I am confident that God has us here for a reason. However, it has been spiritually dry in terms of being poured into and stuff (bottom line, I miss the worship at James River and Pastor John's teaching).

So, back to Beth. I, like all women, struggle with insecurity. (I actually didn't think my mother did, but she went to the conference, so she must. . .who would have thought?) The biggest thing I gained from the conference was just being fed. . .I felt refreshed after eleven months in the desert! I also enjoyed the time with my two girlfriends: Gretchen and Valerie. But, I think my little take-away nuggets were:

1. Insecurity is not a weakness, it is UNBELIEF. I do not believe God has made me the way He said He did. It isn't a weakness I need to work on, it is just unbelief. That made sense to me. Being secure is an active choice (I've been learning a lot this year about active choices). I have to CHOOSE to be secure and then live accordingly. Beth said that no woman is secure accidentally. . .you have to be INTENTIONALLY secure!

2. I have NOTHING to gain from my insecurity.

3. Secure women are FREE from self-obsession. SO TRUE!

4. Security start in the mind and is then an action and is a feeling in the end. I cannot wait until I feel secure before I act secure.

5. I need to be EXCEPTIONAL. I've never really thought about what "exceptional" means before, but that is what I want to be. That girl who is the exception to the "rule." For example, "no one could handle that. . .except for. . ." or "no one treats me that way. . .except for. . ." and so on.

Those weren't Beth's five points, but they were the points I took away. And I was feeling really good about my new decision to be secure until the very end of the teaching when Beth told us to turn towards the person besides you (and since I was in a threesome, I turned towards the stranger on my right) and then we had to look into that person's eyes and repeat this huge thing. . .it was terrible! Every insecurity flared up and I was an insecure "So Long, Insecurity" failure!

The day was fun, though. I worshiped. I was taught. I had a great time with Gretchen and Valerie. Who could ask for anything more? (Well, I could ask that my church and my family move next door, but that's pushing it, I think.)