Okay, I'm not sure I'm really liking the new me. . . it isn't really a new me that I officially turned over, it is just a new me that has appeared out of nowhere. At first glance, the new me seems pretty wonderful. For those of you who read my blog faithfully, you remember me writing about how abandoned I felt in Cabo when Andy left. I thought it was just because I was on vacation. . .well it wasn't just on vacation.
Andy has been gone since Friday and I have turned in to one of those seemingly pathetic women who cannot function without their husbands. (If you're one of those, I don't really mean that you're pathetic, it is just very foreign to me.) I cruised while Andy was gone for the past 13 years. No problems. I ran the house, we chatted on the phone and life moved on. But now I am pathetic. I'm lonely and I miss him and I need his help and his companionship. What has gotten into me?
My thoughts are that he and I are in a really great place right now. I really like him and he has really become the husband I have always dreamed of having. I guess I can't have my cake and eat it to, though, in this situation. I guess in order to get my dream husband, then I am going to miss him and be a pathetic mess when he is away. Is it worth it?!?!??!! Part of me says yes (the part of me when he is home) and part of me says no (the part of me--like now--when he is gone). I would so like to be holding it together while he is out of town.
I'm rambling. I'm pathetic. I'm lonely and I miss my husband! COME HOME, ANDY!!! I love you!
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