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Our Songs. . .

First of all:  this seems like a long post because there are song lyrics all throughout.  You can do it!

I love when I'm driving down the road and one of "our" songs come on!  Who is "our"?  "Our" is me and ________.  I have a song for each of my kids.  It's a song that is special to my relationship with that one particular kid for a certain reason.  I love our songs!

For Hays, our song is "I Wish" by Heather Headly.  I've written about my song with Hays several times.  Click HERE and HERE to see those posts.  You can see the lyrics to "I Wish" on these previous posts and you can see some of the reasons why this song is important to me for Hays.  This song (as the rest of them) could easily be for any of my children, but Hays is my first and he will always hold that special place in my heart.  I want the very best for Hays but I don't want him to get the very best without being able to appreciate the little things or the reasons why the best is the best.  I love this song!  I love the lyrics.  I love the meaning.  I love my boy!

Maggie and I didn't really have a song until recently.  I just hadn't found the right one in my mind.  (I've never gone actively looking for a song for my kids, I just seem to feel it when I hear it.)  The other night Maggie and I were sitting at the kitchen counter and Taylor Swift's "Never Grow Up" came on and I started crying thinking about Maggie.  So, we have a song now!

Your little hand's wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light
To you everything's funny, you got nothing to regret
I'd give all I have, honey
If you could stay like that

 

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple 

I won't let nobody hurt you, won't let no one break your heart
And no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, never grow up


You're in the car on the way to the movies
And you're mortified your mom's dropping you off
At 14 there's just so much you can't do
And you can't wait to move out someday and call your own shots
But don't make her drop you off around the block
Remember that she's getting older too
And don't lose the way that you dance around in your pj's getting ready for school

 

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
No one's ever burned you, nothing's ever left you scarred
And even though you want to, just try to never grow up

 

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what it sounded like when your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother's favorite songs
I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone

So here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
It's so much colder that I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my night light on

 

Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up

Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
I could still be little
Oh I don't wanna grow up, wish I'd never grown up
It could still be simple
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
Won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
And even though you want to, please try to never grow up
Oh, don't you ever grow up
Oh, never grow up, just never grow up 


For Tiki, our song is from Tarzan.  It is Phil Collins "You'll Be In My Heart."  It was his song before I met him.  It was just the song in my heart for us.  I knew I was getting him from a situation I wasn't familiar with and I had no idea what he'd be thinking.  In the only picture I had of him he looked so scared and I think that is why this song came to me.

Come stop your crying
It will be alright
Just take my hand
Hold it tight

I will protect you
From all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry

For one so small,
You seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
Keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always

Why can't they understand the way we feel?
They just don't trust what they can't explain
I know we're different but deep inside us
We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know (what do they know)?
We need each other
To have, to hold.
They'll see in time
I know

When destiny calls you
You must be strong (you gotta be strong)
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
[another version says: "Believe me, you'll be in my heart"]
I'll be there from this day on,
Now and forever more

Oh, you'll be in my heart (you'll be here in my heart)
No matter what they say (I'll be with you)
You'll be here in my heart (I'll be there), always
Always
I'll be with you
I'll be there for you always
Always and always
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
Just look over your shoulder
I'll be there always. 


My song for Dax is Carole King's "Anyone At All."  I think this song makes me thing of him for a couple of reasons.  I really do feel like I can be myself with him and I am so comfortable knowing that he loves me regardless.  Also, we tried so hard to have Dax and lost two babies before him and I got pregnant with him on a month that I wasn't supposed to be able to get pregnant.  So he really could have been anyone at all and I am so so so glad it was him!  God knew who I needed!

Funny how I feel more myself with you
Than anybody else that I ever knew
I hear it in your voice, see it in your face
You've become the memory I can't erase

You could have been anyone at all
A stranger falling out of blue
I'm so glad it was you

Wasn't in the plan not that I could see
Suddenly a miracle came to me
Safe within your arms I can say what's true
Nothing in the world I would keep from you

You could have been anyone at all
An old friend calling out of blue
I'm so glad it was you

Words can hurt you if you let them
People say them and forget them
Words can promise words can lie
But your words make me feel like I can fly

You could have been anyone at all\
And let that catches me when I fall
I'm so glad it was you


For Gabby, our song is from the movie Anastacia.  The song is "At The Beginning" and I don't remember when I first felt like this was our song.  But she loves it when this song comes on, too, because she knows that it is "our" song.  She was unexpected and it was so unexpected what she did to my heart!  We were strangers and now we are on this journey forever together!

We were strangers,
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
What we'd have to go through
Now here we are,
And I'm suddenly standing,
At the beginning with you

No one told me
I was going to find you,
Unexpected
What you did to my heart, 

When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

(Chorus)
And life is a road
And I wanna to keep going
Love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road
Now and forever
Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure

Never dreaming
How our dreams would come true Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

(Chorus)

I knew there was somebody somewhere
That made love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothings gonna tear us apart

(Chorus)

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you. 

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